Let's Just Pretend I'm Starting Over

     I completely let go of feeling anything for Zackey, he's nothing more than my best friend. I let go of all of that today, actually. It's liberating, letting go of something that you've stubbornly held on to for so long. I dipped back into the whole 'crying myself to sleep' thing recently, but it left as fast as it came. Matt and I are still dating, it's been a little over six months, closer to seven, and I can honestly tell you that I love him. I really do. I haven't told him, and I won't, I'm waiting for him to say it. But right now, he doesn't love me. He likes me enough to date me, but he doesn't love me. I'm not going to push him to love me or make him love me. He either doesn't and will someday, or maybe he never will. We'll see. I'm done worrying about things. I'm trying my best to stay calm now, so I don't get anxiety as much as I used to. I've been having anxiety problems lately. It makes my chest hurt really badly and sometimes I can't breathe. Anyway, I just thought I'd come in here and update, I think it's been long enough that I kinda needed to.
     School thus far has been drama free, thank the Lord. I think Hunter and the bitch posse finally gave up the sad little obsession they had for screwing my life up. Which is just fantastic. 
     Oh, and not that Zackey's relationship statuses are important but he has a girlfriend named Bonnie who he dated before and they've been dating for 2 or 3 months now, I think. They say 'I love you' to each other and it's all very lovey and such. She's long distance as well. 
xx~Emily
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